I’m tired of trying to “fix” my life and myself. There’s nothing to fix and never has been. Of course I have things that require attention in myself and my environment, but I’m all done fixing. I am going to live my life in a simple and attuned way from now moving forward. Below are the things I’m going to focus on.
1. Disengaging with unnecessary noise.
I am stepping away from/ minimal social media. I have noticed that it’s very consuming and hampers my creativity and motivation. Instead of scrolling and getting so interested in other peoples hobbies and life, I’m going to start building my own interesting hobbies and life. And if someone out there ever reads this and is thinking, “well duh lady. We all have know that.” And my answer to you is, okay.
I am going to engage more with my inner wisdom. I’m going to engage more with others’ inner wisdom. Reading books and keeping my engagement as intentional as I can is my focus.
2. Fueling the Machine
I want to fuel my body the way it deserves. This doesn’t stop with just fuel, it also includes moving my body with intention. I’ve only got this one body.
3. Attuning into Life’s Structure
My life IS structure. Life IS structure. There is a natural flow to everything and all actions have a structure and flow to them. Instead of constantly resisting the structures that could create the most attuned flow in my life, I want to lean.
4. Focusing on returning instead of being consistent
The word consistent is another word that really plays with my mind. When I think of the word consistent I think of perfection. I automatically feel like if I don’t do whatever it is I’m working on EVERY day I’ve failed. I broke the pattern. This sets me up for all or nothing thinking which is defeating. If I miss one day I might as well quit.
The like the word returning because there feels like flexibility here. The word returning means to go or to come back to a space, state, or activity. Even the definition has a more light feeling. I’m not certain I can keep a pattern going long term in this moment, but I am positive I can return to even a little bit of whatever it is I’m working on.
Embracing the “Creative Rotation”
If you were to look inside my brain as if it were a computer you would see 1,000 of open tabs. I have been trying for years to close all of these tabs and try to function with only one tab open, the “one thing at a time” idea. While I understand that all I can ever do is one thing at a time physically/mentally, I’m going to embrace the fact that I like having many things going in my life. The one thing I’m going to focus a lot of energy on is returning to them more often to make forward progress instead of having them sit stagnant. Below is a list of “open tabs” I have going right now. I plan to come back to this post and update progress or create a blog series for each one, haven’t decided yet. These tabs are always open and running throughout my day.
- My teaching career. I am going to continue to learn and improvement my skills through trainings and courses.
- Writing my fiction book.
- Finishing my Women’s Mental Health certification
- Finishing my positive practitioner certification
- Being a care giver to three elderly fur babies ( 1 dog has hip/nerve issues and is having difficulty walking, 1. has a heart disease/ collapsed trachea, and my cat was recently diagnosed with lymphoma)
- Spending intentional time enjoying my leisure activities.
- The structure and systems tab
I’m sure I’ll think of more to add as they come up.
As I’m using this blog to work through my thoughts and experiences I feel the shift. Even if no-one reads this blog there’s some element of accountability here.